Leaving My Yellow Dressing Gown Behind

Monday morning. 8.40 AM. I am here. Too early. I press the buzz. They let me in. We exchange polite smiles and “you all rights”. Is that my manager? What a relief. I am not the first one. He looks about twelve. Is that my colleague or my grandchild? I am told we can help…

Speak Up When Hurt. Save a Life

I am sitting and crying my heart out. ‘Nice dress. Are you wearing knickers?’ he asks. ‘Excuse me?’ I freeze and look around. All these certificates framing his accomplishments. Am I just being dramatic and making it all up to spice up my life. Then he looks through my file, says I need help and…

Calling off Sick When Your Soul Hurts. Embracing Mental Health

Suicide / Self Harm: Yes Violence: Yes Neglect/ Vulnerability: Yes Falls: No Risk Screen – Please describe the risks identified in the assessment. Past history of overdosing once with sleeping tablets. She said she can become aggressive towards her husband when she feels elated. Service user strengths, needs and expectations. Strengths: she said she used…

Sunday Blues

Do you get lonely? I do. Especially on Sundays. “Viktor Frankl defined ‘Sunday neurosis’ <…> He described an emptiness, a void and a misery that came from boredom <…>┬áthat kind of depression which afflicts people who become aware of the lack of content in their lives when the rush of the busy week is over…

Be Your Own Hero

All needles will be confiscated and not returned! I read the sign at the entrance and waited to be scanned. No beep this time. I have no watch. I am wearing flats. I keep thinking what my daughter makes out of our visits. She is old enough to understand that these are not spa trips….

Social vs Anxious. When You Lose Your Stars

I found myself weeping in a bar. It was Chinese New Years Eve. The plan was to party. I was not feeling my best self that day, but it seemed manageable. I had two cocktails, forced myself to dance and laugh. I do tend to drift from super sociable and happy to someone just observing…